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Infidelix — A heartwarming, real rapper

joanaweber
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7 min readNov 16, 2017

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photo: Karl Kratz

In early April this year, I saw an artist performing at Warschauer Straße in Berlin, who made me stop. A fully inked guy was rapping on the street and suddenly caught all the attention of the people who were passing by. Now, a few months later I had the chance to interview this talent right before his show at Bar Tausend and I couldn’t be happier with the answers I got. Read for yourself:

Can you introduce yourself in one sentence?

My name is Infidelix and I’m a world travelling street rapper that inspires people everywhere.

Since when are you doing music?

Forever, I’ve always been making music. My first music video was almost six years ago. Not too crazy long but for this time professionally and as something I wanna do with my life.

Do you prefer the streets to concert halls?

Yeah, I definitely do. I prefer street music, because it’s real: People don’t have to stop, they can keep on walking. When you play in the club, you’re usually here to support your friends but you could really give a fuck about the other bands, you might go smoke a cigarette and do whatever.

I feel like my energy gets trapped in here, which is good, but also when I’m outside I can spill it to the universe and I want it to stick in that tree that’s standing right there and stay in it forever. I like the streets, because it’s just more beautiful. The sun is setting, the birds are chirping, the wind breezes lightly by your face, and everybody gets this feeling of coolness real quick. It’s more than music, you’re fucking with the universe, while you’re making the music and it’s all coming together.

photo: Karl Kratz

What’s your inspiration, do you have any role models?

I don’t consider rap as my influence. I barely listen to rap, I just make it, it’s my way to self-expressing.

I don’t look up to other rappers, because I think that they give a negative influence on things, talking about girls and coke. I look up to people that change the world and make a difference, made technologial advances, flown to the moon, those types of people.

The hip hop scene is often betrayed as anti-gay. Has that topic ever been a problem for you?

Look at me, I’m covered in tats, if you wanna talk shit, talk shit but you can get knocked out — I’m not gonna just sit there. To be fair, nobody has ever crossed that step, because I’ve never made it a reason why I do music, I’m not a gay rapper, it’s not my brand, I’m a rapper that is gay. I’m out to everyone but there’s nothing public about it, which kinda sucks somtimes, because only girls come and talk to me, hit me up on my facebook after the shows and so on.

Where do you originally come from and is Berlin home for you?

I come from Texas and I’m used to only knowing people from Texas, never exploring different rules or laws or ways of thinking. I’ve only known Texas and now that I’ve seen what else is there, I could never go back, because I’d be jumping levels down from what I’m able to persue here.

Also I am a traveler, I go where my heart tells me. Berlin is my home as long as the people want me here.

photo: Karl Kratz

Did you have any complications finding your place here in Berlin?

It’s very hard for me here, because street music is illegal so I can’t prove my income to a landlord. Thanks we live in a big city and I found someone who takes my money. I share a room with somebody and live under his name for three years, but now it’s time to move. I wanna get my shit together and I want my own room. I’m a dude from Texas trying to find my way to survive, make my music so not everything is easy like getting a flat. Things are struggle, real life is still trying to get in the way of dreams.

Let’s talk about your tattooes. Do they have a special meaning to you?

At first they didn’t, but now they do. You start getting them for different reasons, you know. This one on my face is there, because it shows me to be careful: As your progress becomes succesful, people come into your life, they might be toxic and you might not see that first, but people always want something from somebody else that’s how the world works.

I officially consider myself as a rapper now, I can officially say that I will never again work for somebody and I like that I’m able to do that. It feels good, because there was a point in my life where I totally wasn’t able to do that, I had to worry about my jobs, but not now. Fuck my jobs, my job now let’s me do all this and I also got my gay pride tattoo.

Not all of them have been done in studies, some of them I’ve been done in peoples’ living rooms or kitchens. It’s all about the experience. I did some myself in a house with no electricity, when I was really bored. They are shitty, but I keep them. I’m not a person that cares about what other people think about me anyways. In the end of the day this isn’t for them, it’s for me.

photo: Timeless Cut Production

Do you think people could do more than they are doing right now to support LGBT+ rights?

I think it’s about awareness. The priviledge that I have, to be an openly gay rapper is that a lot of the younger boys who are in their fifteens, sixteens or seventeens have questions about this kind of stuff. I get emails from people starting with ‘Hey, can I ask you a question?’ and I already know what’s up. It’s really cool, because they have somebody they can trust and talk to.

I think what’s gonna help affect things, is that people need to become more comfortable with themselves at a younger age, because they are gonna be our next generation.You might hate gay people now until your son is gay, until your daughter is gay and then your opinion changes. But when people stay in their closet their whole life and not even mention it, their parents will never experience how it’s like to love somebody like that — that will never happen and this child has to live a lie and the parents are gonna hate gay people, because they don’t realise that they have one in their family.

I got a changed gender cousin, who’s about to get their sex changed from Robbie to Rachel and I have another gay cousin. It’s like all the kids are coming out and our parents have the choice: They can love us or not love us, it just opens peoples’ eyes.

Same with me, I got a lot of friends that don’t know until I’m out to them. At first they would get scared, but then they get to know me and see that we’re not crazy.

It’s about being educated, you can go protest if you want to but that’s not educating people. I enjoy sitting down with somone like “Hey, I’m gay.” I’ve chilled with some straight gangsters who were tatted up, probably killed people and they’ve accepted me because I didn’t lie or pretend to be somebody different.

Is there any special message you have for the community?

Just stand up for yourself. If you see somebody getting made fun of, do something about it. If you see something that you disagree with, say something. Because if we sit back and do nothing it’s considered as being okay.

No kid should get bullied at school because of a boy wants to paint his nails, he shouldn’t get pushed on the stairs because of that. If he does, you need to go find the people who did it and fucking tell them what’s up. It’s about recognizing that something’s going wrong and being there to support the younger people.

When I was thirteen, nobody was gay, nobody would have the balls to come out and say that. But nowadays you have kids like that and it’s so cool to see it, because that’s the next generation. Maybe the laws and the rights suck now, but that’s the future that’s gonna be making our laws in ten years.

Still one of the top reasons why people commit suicide, is because they struggle with their sexuality and they just can’t be happy. So it’s important to let them know ‘Hey, you’re still loved.’ If the people didn’t love and support me I don’t think I’d be here, because we all struggle with those thoughts.

photo: Karl Kratz

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